feeling all the feels.

and they've got me sick to my stomach.

i see it happening in my family, associates, and throughout my generally privileged hamlet here in NOCAL.

mind-bending and soul crushing.

trump was like dumping Miracle Grow on our country's collective shadow side and it's flourishing.

never in my decades on this planet, this country, this state, or in my earthly orbit could i have anticipated such rot.

thank you for putting such clear lines around the negative clouds i've observed over the past decade or so... today gathering exponentially... particularly post-covid.

troubling isn't strong enough a word... but the only way i've been able to accept or acknowledge my low-grade terror and grief 24/7.

at least until now.